It Happened So Long Ago
"It happened so long ago," you said,
as I expressed my contempt.
"It happened so long ago!?" I yell,
as you stand there acting like the victim.
My nightmares from last night make it feel like today.
Every broken relationship circles back to you.
I cringe every-time a "Me Too" campaign runs.
I get queasy when I see a father hugging his daughter.
A long time ago doesn't feel so long ago to me.
How dare you put your filthy actions with a time limit.
Am I successful? Yes
Am I strong and independent? Yes
But that doesn't mean that your sins have past.
It happened so long ago?
Yeah until you're the one that was truly hurt.
HYPOCRITE!
My thousands of dollars in therapy,
my thousands of dollars on PTSD and sleep medicine,
my trust issues,
my inability to have a long-term relationship,
my constant fear of feeling like I did something wrong,
my constant need to please people,
my constant fear of being stupid,
that was all born a long time ago.
You built that foundation a long time ago.
How dare you belittle my actions to not allow you in my life,
because you say, "It happened so long ago."
I have to face the consequences of your choices
EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.
Until I no longer have to face these things that I can not control,
it wasn't a long time ago........ it's now
